Wednesday, June 22, 2011


"Cat's should be kicked, put down, big deal, it's a cat." he stated as if it were a fact.

"Excuse me?"

"Cats. I mean really what's their purpose? They have no purpose, it's not like their human."

"Oh. Well in that case, What's your purpose?" I said smugly.

"ah... um... I. I have a purpose..."


He starts to laugh as he sees things from a different perspective.

"That's what I thought."

Did I "win"?
Did I get what I was looking for?

Not entirely.
You see, I did want him to see that his logic was based purely in ego. Which he did indeed do.
But I'm always looking for the otherside... what others are seeing that I'm missing.

I secretly was holding my breath.
Wondering if he was going to reveal this secret of "Purpose".

Just as clueless as the rest of us.

I do know though, that when you are doing something in your life day in and day out that does not sit well with you, you are wasting it.

Now, this doesn't (at the present moment) do me much good, since the thing that has me wasting my life is the place I spend the majority of my days... and since I am not independently wealthy I can not "Just" quit. Can anybody really?

I have my answer. I just don't have the equation on how to get there.

I have always sucked at math.

This could be one hell of a journey out.
I will find it.
I have to.

I have a 7 year old girl who can not be let down one more time.